Emotions Conflict?

I just dont understand why Im always not in my mood to do blog update when there's so many 'things' on my head that shud be blurt out to get me out of stress.

Adui...life..life. Sometimes, I feel like I don't have something to focus on in my life. Its not that I don't have aim in my life. But I just too confuse with my life path. When I was still doing my diploma, how I wish to finish it as fast as I can. Then, once my wish granted, I just don't know what to do next. Its already month of April and im still here, being a jobless yet not a student anymore. How I wish I have a work. A work that i wish im in. or... further my study. Yeah, daddy do ask me to do so, tho at first im not that interested to further my study but when I think twice, it was his wish. To make them proud, I accept it. Tho I had accepted their wish, yet there's still so many obstacles I need to face. Become a sponsorship student is not that easy. Yeah, it's so easy when they can pay ur fees and u r happy with that. But, when u r bounded with them for 5years and u cant even do anything for ur future within the 5years is so annoying. To get a job, u have to think twice for it. To get in any institution, u have to think twice for it. Everything stuck with the sponsorship. Kalau kana bgi kaja awl nda pa, ini mo lagi tunggu. Trus kalo dia bagi ko sini2 sj xpa, klo dia hantar ko saaaana jau2. Sigh..xsanggup sy idup sturng2 selama 5taun ba. Thats the thing that always lingering on my mind. Yea' people always said thing positive. But...I just cant stand to live alone for 5years without family by myside ba. huhu.. Telampau negative thinking ba kali sy ni kan. Tapi, butul la ba juga. Huhu..Pendek kata, I dont know what to do with this life! Hope everything will be like I wish to as soon as possible. Lead me Lord to the 'zone' that i wish to be. Amen~

Okey, lets forget the stressful moment for the time being. As I was skyping with the sister, she was on-the-line with parents in China. Yea, their was on vacay at dad's hometown and for the first time, they went there for Qing Ming with two other relatives(Ah Baak and his wife) and for the first time too, they went there to visit Tai Po (great-grandma's) grave and tracing the family root in China. In a short conversation with them, it was a sad yet happy moment when the first time being there. :') I feel touched too. Sob2. Okey, I just cant wait for Friday to come. There must be bunch of story from them. God bless their journey!

Alright, todays entry gonna be long as I would like to show the activity of me and family during the weekend. :D

Sao Mu (Sweep Tomb) at Popo Tua and Qung Qung's grave 

The week before Qing Ming which is fall on 5th April, my family and I went for Sao Mu at parents hometown in Tenom. Only few family managed to be there on that day where else the other family come during the week of Qing Ming. After the Sao Mu, we plan to go for a visit at Taman Pertanian, Sabah but due to the heavy rain, we bring it on to the next day. We stay at the-late-nenek's house on that day which as usual, there will be an aramaiti to greet us all. We know nenek is happy to 'see' us there too.

Cherry~ Isn't she cute? :)

Orchid Garden

There's three option of viewing that place
By train, cycling or walking. But for sure no one will choose walking as it take a day to finish up visiting all the places inside. Talampau basar~!

n yea'..for sure we choose cycling. Been so long never use a bicycle, nasib masi pandai.ngee~

So thats all bout the 'balik kampung' trip. So then, during last weekend, I'd spend my all day long with the family. Nona and I did attend the 'Power for the People' at First Beach, Tg Aru but I didn't manage to take a photo of the event as the camera was left home. *sigh*

Jalan-jalan cari angin with the niece 

After the jog', there goes a photoshot

Till then peers..



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