In another 9days to go, Christmas will arise. In 2weeks later, we'll meet a new year of 2011! Are ready to face a new challenge of a new year people? As for me, too sad to say that Im not. *SIGH*
As I was on the line with him just now, suddenly something came across my mind. A weird feeling which I never tot before appear without notice. A new year will come, and a new challenges in life is ready to be meet. But, am I ready for it? Then all the challenges I had gone thru within this year of 2010 came up 1 by 1 without my need. It just remind me that this year, I'd gone thru so many tough obstacle which me myself never aspect it. Which me myself still wondering if it's me the one who should face it. I dont understand why Im too worry to meet a new year compare to last year which Im the happiest person when the year is going to change. Maybe it's just I had gone thru so many obstacles within this year and Im too scared to meet another more tougher obstacles ahead, or maybe now Im no longer a student but yet going to be a workers but still didn't know what, where and when it will be, and maybe Im just too worry with the future that's why all this happened.
My tears started to fall the time I talk about this thing to him and I know he know the reason of this. But the more he trying to calm me down the more my tears falling down like rain. I just dont know why Im too emotional this day. It's not that I dont have faith in Him, but Im just too scared to know what's next. I know it's not the time to talk about this thing at this moment as everyone are ready for Christmas while Im still here worrying about something that I should not worry about. Yea' we know that everything happened for a reason and it wont happened above our limit. That's what I should mark on!
Ok I know I shouldn't think about this now. The most important thing is when it's Christmas, its mean that a Saviour has been born! He's the one who wipe away all the tears, worries and all our sins and I know I should prepare my self for that and not just keep thinking and worrying about something that shouldn't be worrying about. Now I realize why Christmas fall on December and not on other month. It was for us to prepare ourself to face another new challenges of year and keep our faith in Him. Yes, thats it! Now, I should prepare myself for the 9days to go big 'event' and as Im a sinner, I should ready myself for a confession before receive Him with a cleanness heart.
HE IS THE REASON FOR THE SEASON!
LET US REJOICE AND BE GLAD!
Lotsoflove
Ya... I also feel that I'm not ready for New Year :P And yes, no matter what, he is the reason for everything.
ReplyDeleteThat reminds me...Laaama suda sia nda pigi church oo.
GOD knows everything in ur heart. No matter if you can't explain anything in ur heart, He would know. Don't worry Cindy, He loves you. He Loves all of us. He'll never leave us..
ReplyDeleteHope you have a blessed and joyful Christmas ever.. and yes, HE is the REASON for the SEASON.
Meimei, everything happens for a reason therefore no matter what lies ahead of you, you must go thru it! That's what life is all about.
ReplyDeleteBe strong! Chin up! Our saviour has gone thru many heart breaks,dissapointment, fear...But with the faith you have in God! I'm sure it's just a challenge on earth to be mould into a better person in the future....
You can cry out loud! No one should stop you to...As that is a way for us to let all the feelings go..! Bottom line, break a leg honey! U can do it!
lets hope for a better next year.. :D
ReplyDeleteHi Cindy,
ReplyDeleteLife is complicated. Whatever happen, just face it...when you feel you had enough and couldn't bear it anymore, just let God deal with it.
Don't worry you are not alone. I also afraid what is waiting for me next year but hey lets be positive...
okayarms~ yea..i missed two weeks of advent sdh jg ni.maybe that's the reason y i have a -ve thinking smpai ginie kn.huhu..ba diz week is the last week of advent. pg kama...:)
ReplyDeletestella~tnx stella..yea' He knows everythng. n He know the reason for this. hope to have a merrier christmas this year n same goes to u. blessed advent! :)
Getzz~ yes cuzz! will give the best next year..n yea, crying is the best way for me to let the feeling go..tnx for ur concern cuzz!:)
Just~ yes..fingercrossed for a better future..:)
SK~yea God knows the best for us..lets throw the -ve thinking of us n face it wit hope. God bless..:)
chayo2 moi! mcm tu kakak2 kita ckp, everything happened for a reason blang tu! hehe...God had planned everything for us..sa pun prnah rasa mcm ko jga.last year after abis stdy, stress abis sa coz bnyk pikir mcm yg ko pkir moi hehehe.
ReplyDeleteNever give up and cheers up liang moi! =Dheee~~~
ya moi..i was courage by all of ur tot.trus bsmngt sy skit.hee..btw tnx moi! have a merrier Christmas moi!! :)
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